Heather (![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} mutedtempest) wrote,@ 2008-04-21 21:47:00 |
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| Entry tags: | 1, self-esteem, tasks in progress |
1. Stop letting my depression run my life.
I know this one isn't really cut and dried in terms of completion, but I think it definitely has measurable progress. It's going to be one of my most important ongoing tasks (as evidenced by the fact that it's #1 on the list, lol) and I'll be updating this every time I do something that really seems to relate to it.
Obviously there'll be a big variety in these things, and it probably won't make much sense to anyone except myself. That's who I started the list for, though, so meh.
Anyway, I doubt I'll be able to cross this one off, even when the timeframe ends. Still, I can already see myself making progress on it, so yay.
February 24th, 2008:
I don't think I need to tell anyone that I've been pretty depressed lately. Winter does that to me, and there's been some social/family stuff going on too. I've also been noticing a lot more mood swings recently, but that's probably due more to the fact that I'm not on medication as anything. But that's beside the point. Basically all I've wanted to do for the past month is just lay in bed and do absolutely nothing all day. It's a struggle to even type out my stories or do homework, let alone anything else.
Still, yesterday I booked a Greyhound to New York City on March 13th. I'm actually going to go and see my friend Melissa, and the city itself seeing as I've never been. It probably doesn't sound like much, but to me it's huge. Not just for the fact that I'll be getting out of the house, but the social aspect is really scary for me. Which is dumb, because she's not scary at all! Still.
So, that's my first in what I hope to be a long series of steps to conquer these fucking demons in my head.
Anyway, I doubt I'll be able to cross this one off, even when the timeframe ends. Still, I can already see myself making progress on it, so yay.
February 24th, 2008:
I don't think I need to tell anyone that I've been pretty depressed lately. Winter does that to me, and there's been some social/family stuff going on too. I've also been noticing a lot more mood swings recently, but that's probably due more to the fact that I'm not on medication as anything. But that's beside the point. Basically all I've wanted to do for the past month is just lay in bed and do absolutely nothing all day. It's a struggle to even type out my stories or do homework, let alone anything else.
Still, yesterday I booked a Greyhound to New York City on March 13th. I'm actually going to go and see my friend Melissa, and the city itself seeing as I've never been. It probably doesn't sound like much, but to me it's huge. Not just for the fact that I'll be getting out of the house, but the social aspect is really scary for me. Which is dumb, because she's not scary at all! Still.
So, that's my first in what I hope to be a long series of steps to conquer these fucking demons in my head.
April 20th-21st, 2008
I decided that I'm going to try and be as happy as I can let myself be, by doing everything I can to make my life the way I want it. No matter what anybody says.