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83. Stop assuming the worst if people don’t talk to me for a day or more

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101 Tasks in 1001 Days

From: http://triplux.com/dayzero/

First Day: February 1st, 2008

Last Day: October 28th, 2010

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Green = currently in progress

1. Stop letting my depression run my life.

2. Record all blood glucose test results on paper.

3. Write at least 50 poems, to prove I can still do it

4. Make peace with my father and stepmother, even if it’s only inside myself.

5. Finish my bachelor's degree.

6. Eat a deep-fried Mars bar when in Scotland, and try my best not to puke/die because of it

7. Stop using the word "fuck" so much

8. Apply/get accepted to a master's program in Scotland or Sweden

9. By the end of August 2008, get my BUNAC visa application and fee sent in

10. Spend at least 30 nights without the internet/TV.

11. Do 5,000 push-ups and 5,000 sit-ups

12. Deposit at least 5% of my monthly earnings into my checking account, no matter how much I make

13. Stand up for myself when people treat me badly

14. Buy a decent digital camera

15. Finish "Lest I Forget"

16. Truly start believing that I'm good enough to be accepted by people without embellishing my life

17. Learn to accept love without feeling unworthy of it and pushing the person away

18. Do at least 30 random social things, even something as simple as going to a neighborhood cafe for lunch.

19. When living overseas on the BUNAC visa, continue doing social things (i.e. no shutting myself away in a foreign country)

20. See at least 10 sunrises

21. Go sky diving at least once

22. Accumulate $1,000 in my savings by cutting out needless expenses and putting away the great majority of what I earn

23. Take at least 10 random, unplanned daytrips

24. Actively seek feedback on my stories and poems

25. Read 10 classic novels

26. Go to bed by midnight every night for a week

27. Drink nothing but water/tea for a week

28. Relearn sign language

29. Stop feeling guilty after seizures/reactions!!!

30. Watch 101 movies I haven't already seen

31. Go to the cinema at least 30 times instead of downloading everything

32. Try at least 30 new restaurants

33. Buy a stepper machine, and use it 3x weekly for one month (to be continued as long as possible)

34. Identify 101 things that make me happy and write them down.

35. Visit my mom's grave when I feel the need to talk

36. See the Aurora Borealis

37. Quit making people a priority when they only make me an option

38. Take a class purely for my own enjoyment

39. Give something away on Freecycle

40. Stop feeling guilty for things in the past

41. Take more risks instead of falling back on my comfort zone

42. Get back in touch with my aunt Lori

43. Spend more time with my grandpa before I run out of time to

44. Get at least 3 more tattoos

45. Start singing again, even if only to myself

46. Figure out what to focus on, career-wise

47. Read ten books on disciplines or topics I don't know anything about.

48. Go to Norway with Leia (health permitting)

49. Go see Ireland

50. See Washington DC

51. Gradually become more comfortable going out in public; reduce panic attacks

52. Spend at least a day with Lisa doing something she wants to do when I'm in the US

53. Go to at least 3 concerts

54. Apply for the Work in Ireland BUNAC program while still in Scotland

55. Market my poetry to at least 5 publications

56. Learn more (X)HTML

57. Purge/donate any items I don't use and don't need at least once every season

58. Give/receive at least 30 hugs

59. Take a minimum of 300 walks

60. Join/participate in a choir

61. Learn some photography that’s more advanced than “point and shoot”

62. Download and watch all seasons of Buffy

63. Try at least 30 new recipes

64. Reread my Japanese 101 textbook, and answer all questions in it

65. Rewrite all my poetry journals in ink

66. Take a martial arts course, and stick with it so I get good

67. Send 10 letters to friends/family overseas, instead of just emailing/IMing them

68. Listen to all the Kelka podcasts again, in order...including non-episode ones

69. Have more than the required 1000 GBP saved for Scotland by October 1st, 2008

70. Go to services for at least 5 different religions/denominations

71. Book my flight to Scotland by September 5th, 2008

72. Stop biting fingernails for one week straight, to be continued as long as I can make it

73. Find at least 2 new hobbies

74. Buy a decent mp3 player to take on trips

75. Place flowers on an old unattended grave

76. Eat (or drink!) breakfast every day at breakfast time for one month

77. Read 30 books just for pleasure

78. Visit at least 5 countries I haven't been to before

79. Identify 25 things I like about myself, no matter how hard that is

80. Start believing in love again

81. Buy a decent bicycle and use it as my primary mode of transportation

82. Stand outside for the duration of a thunderstorm, just to feel it

83. Stop assuming the worst if people don’t talk to me for a day or more

84. Make some real effort toward improving my health/appearance (teeth/weight/eyesight/etc.)

85. Learn CPR

86. Don't turn down invitations to social occasions, unless I have a real conflict

87. Meet at least 3 "online" friends in person (that I haven't already met)

88. Stick to a grocery budget for one month

89. Spend a day being a kid again. Park, picnic, maybe running through the sprinklers, lemonade, etc.

90. Be completely silent for 24 hours

91. Give money to a beggar and actually mean it

92. Learn enough Swedish to be able to converse at least somewhat

93. Swear off caffeine for two weeks

94. Buy one (small, inexpensive) frivolous thing a month

95. Write up a Living Will, just in case

96. Do 100 things for just myself, without putting anyone else before me

97. Buy groceries/clothes/anything else possible at discount and thrift stores rather than at market prices

98. Cuddle at least once

99. Get back to a maximum weight of 125 lbs if not less

100. Have at least 30 days to myself to decompress

101. Start a new list in October of 2010, starting off with anything I failed to accomplish on this one

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Bonus Tasks

1. Stand up for myself when I treat MYSELF badly

83. Stop assuming the worst if people don’t talk to me for a day or more

[info]mutedtempest
3/24/08 02:18 pm
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I used to be really paranoid that people were just going to stop liking me all of a sudden. I don't really know why; probably just the self-esteem thing. Oh wells.

I don't know exactly when it changed, but I don't freak out anymore. If people really want to start disliking me all of a sudden for no reason, that's them, not me. And just because someone doesn't talk to me for awhile doesn't automatically mean they hate me.

So, um...yay progress? Lol.
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  • [info]darknessdee
    3/25/08 01:39 am (UTC)
    "I don't know exactly when it changed, but I don't freak out anymore. If people really want to start disliking me all of a sudden for no reason, that's them, not me."

    Maybe because I told you pretty much those exact words the other day? lol
    At least I'm glad you realized it. I doubt people hate you, and if they do, it's their loss anyway.

    • [info]mutedtempest
      3/25/08 02:05 am (UTC)
      Yeah, and that helped, although I knew it before. I just didn't really believe it until you said it.

      • [info]darknessdee
        3/25/08 02:08 am (UTC)
        Well see, listen to me you must. Solve your problems I will. Change my name to Yoda I should.

        • [info]mutedtempest
          3/25/08 02:12 am (UTC)
          ...watch it, or I'll start calling you Shane. And you hate that, lol.

          (ps i wouldn't really do that)

          • [info]darknessdee
            3/25/08 02:15 am (UTC)
            Where did you get SHANE from when I was being all Yoda-ish after watching Star Wars all day? You be nice or I'll call you ton-ton!
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