InsaneJournal

46. Figure out what to focus on, career-wise
Duh. i can't believe this was ever even a question for me. I need to be a writer, in some capacity. it's the only thing I can really see myself doing longterm.

Every day I'm here, i have a million different ideas for poems and shirt stories and novels. If I never write them, it doesn't matter, but they'rethere and I think that's the important thing. that's what I think about when I'm alone. That's what I've always thought about when I'm alone.

It doesnt matter what job I get. Ideally I'd make my living writing, but if I can't, I can get some regular job to pay the bills and write when I'm home.

I think for my regular job, I'd like to be a professor. But if I can't do that, I'd like to just have random stupid jobs where I can take a week off when I want to and just go exploring. I'd love to own and run a bookshop. I like interior decorating, I could do that. I like woodworking, i could probably do that if I took courses and got certified. I could be a fucking massage therapist if i want. A tour guide would be another cool thing, which is kinda good because that's the program I'll apply for at Umeå, lol.

But, yeah. I really don't know why I ever thought I could be something other than that.